support & understanding

Can anyone tell me that when you need comfort, support & understanding... it's no where to be found from the one person you need it to be from?  Am I losing my mind?  Ok... yeah maybe I am or hell maybe I've already lost it.

I've just had one of those days today.  One of those days where nothing seems to be going right what-so-ever & just continues to bottom out on me.  As a result, I've been extremely emotional.  One minute pissed off, next minute crying my eyes out & then feeling sorry for myself & wondering why me?

Where's the love at?  Where's the warm blanket that is supposed to wrap itself around me for comfort & make me feel better?  I can't seem to find it.

I feel like I'm typically a comforting person & try to be there thru thick & thin, but where is that in return for me?

My stomach has been in knots all damn day.  Twisting & turning sideways.  It just seems like if it can go wrong, it has today & it's completely out of my control, which makes it even worse.

The one good thing today... I received a buckle at the awards banquet & it's very pretty!  Unfortunately my current body shape will not allow me to wear it but hopefully a few months after Kayla arrives I will be able to.  Someone thought enough of me to order me a buckle this year & that means a lot to me.  I will write more & post pics later about it.

But for now... I'm venting & crying, so let's get back to that.

FYI, it's really hard to type when you can't see thru watery teary eyes.

Maybe I will get lucky & my knight in a shiny white dodge will arrive at some point & be here to snuggle & comfort me thru the rest of my evening before I decide to cry myself to sleep.  What are the odds that will happen... hell I'm not even sure.

Repeat after me... tomorrow is a new day & it will be much better... tomorrow is a new day & it will be much better.  Now if I could only believe that.  Ugh.

Time to blow my nose.