the results are in

Well the results are in... we went yesterday morning for the ultra sound & it's officially a girl !!

The ultra sound lady said baby Kayla is looking good so far, which is what matters most.  I was shocked at how much Kayla has grown just since the last ultra sound I had several weeks ago.  We have ultra sound pics which I will post later this week, because I haven't had a chance to scan them on to the computer just yet. Way too many things going on all at the same time.

I've been working on invitations to our wedding reception & trying to wrap my brain around everything I have to get done in just a short amount of time.

Monday I was off work.  My bff Kat & I decided to do some wedding dress shopping & well that didn't exactly go in my favor.  Talk about depressing.  Really depressing.  Every dress I tried on, I felt like an over sized water bufalo.  I was ready to throw in the towel & not walk down the aisle at all by the time I got back home.  All the dresses were more expensive then what I have in my budget to spend right now & the fact that I'm 19 weeks prego & feel like I've gained one million pounds already didn't help my confidence either.  Looking in the mirror after putting on a dress just made me wanna cry at the thought of actually walking out in in front of anyone, especially down the aisle towards my future husband & wondering what he his first reaction would be.  I would like there to be tears of happiness not tears of laughter in his eyes.

My massive chest size isn't helping me at all either.  AND they continue to grow, I'm not even sure what size comes next.  It doesn't help that my chest size has never fit my body to begin with but now that things are growing & swelling... my boobs have decided to jump a whole size & continue on the up hill walk to the next size it appears.  Just great I tell ya.  If anyone is considering implants, don't do it... I will be more than willing to donate after baby Kayla gets here.

On a positive note...

Last weekend was 4th of July weekend, which equals 3 day weekend, which also equals AWESOME!

I love days off work that we still get paid for... I mean who doesn't?

We had two birthday parties to attend.  Burgandi Dawn, my bff Kat's daughter who she named after me because she just loves me oh so much!  Burgandi turned 12 which I'm still thinking can't be right & we need to double check her birth certificate on that one... that makes me feel old.  Emily (Fred's niece) turned 2 & we had pizza Sunday night to celebrate hers.  She's an absolute doll too!

4th of July night... we didn't go watch fireworks or anything crazy like that.  We got home from a long day out & about everywhere, we worked on invitations, watched some tv & that was the extent of our fun for the evening.  Mother Nature fell off her rocking chair & made it pour rain most of the day anyways, so it was kinda yuck to be hanging outside.  At least she did remember to stop the rain long enough so Edmond could have their fireworks show.  I heard it was good.

I went to bed at 11:00pm last night but I'm thinking I should have been in bed around 9:00pm instead.  I'm absolutely worn smooth out today.  I actually dozed off a few times reading emails & I'm not even half way thru the work day yet.  All I can think about is going home after work & taking a nap.  Except that won't happen, otherwise I won't get the invitations finished up & ready to mail out tomorrow & along with having a rodeo meeting tomorrow night (which I'm debating whether I will attend or not) I also have a Jr Rodeo this weekend.  Neither of which I'm prepared for yet.

There is rain in the forecast for Thursday/Friday though... so I'm keeping my fingers crossed the rodeo gets rained out & I won't have to stress out about getting everything ready for that.  Between now, our wedding & reception... we have two rodeo weekends.  How crazy is that.  Just shoot me now please.

I'm day dreaming of a hot meal waiting & a fluffed pillow for me to pass out on when I get home tonight.

Oh I dream big, I know.  But it never hurts to dream right.