failing

So here's a brief run down of my current craziness...

After marrying the love of my life on July 27th, wonderful reception the Saturday following... we took a brief 3 day honeymoon to Branson, MO last Thursday through Saturday.  We had a great time.  We arrived around 7pm Thursday night... we got a later start then what we had originally planned, but the cabin we rented was totally awesome to put it lightly.  A total honeymoon dream.  We grabbed something to eat then retired to our room shortly after that because we were exhausted from the drive.  Friday we got up & hit the town til around 3pm then headed to Silver Dollar City where we stayed the rest of the day.  Needless to say... it was hot & my body was absolutely worn smooth out by the time we left there.  If anyone wants a true leg workout, Silver Dollar City is definitely the place to go.  I honestly don't think any walking path is straight, it's all up & down hill & sometimes pretty steep.  For this prego body, it was a true test & not being in exactly tip top shape carrying around what seems like an extra 90 lbs right now, whew... exhausting.  We ate at a nice restaurant after we left Silver Dollar, then retired to our room for a relaxing bath, then passed out directly after that.  Unfortunately baby Kayla decided she didn't like what I had eaten for dinner & woke me up around 2am, then off & on the remainder of the evening.  It was a very long night to say the least & Saturday morning came way to early for me.

When I finally made my body drag itself out of bed & get up & around, it was around 10am.  Check out was 11am, so I managed to get around, packed & ready to roll shortly before 11am somehow.  Then we headed back to Silver Dollar City for a few hours to finish seeing things we didn't get a chance to look at the day before.  After we left there, we grabbed a bit to eat, did some last minute shopping then hit the highway back to Oklahoma.

We got home at 10:30pm then after we un-loaded the truck, we headed to my parents house to pick up Abigail, then head back home to pass out.

Well after a wonderful honeymoon vacation with my honey... it was back to the grind stone.

It never fails that after a bunch of good things happen to me... something always has to go wrong somewhere I swear.

Monday, my new fabulous job that I loved so much... ended.  Yep, just like that.
Seemed like everything that could go wrong while I was working there in the past 4 months... did go wrong.  I guess some things are just not meant to be.

Monday I was on an emotional roll-a-coaster to put it lightly.  My moods changed from upset, to pissed off, back to upset again, etc.  I was a total & complete mess.  I have to admit I didn't see this coming & I was in total shock when I got the news.

So here I am, 23 weeks prego & job-less.  I can't help but think about how un-fair this is to be in such a spot.  Like why did this have to happen to me?  Being newly married & prego, this is a hard hit for us.

I've had very supportive friends & family this week, but I have to say that my #1 support has been my hubby.  He's been absolutely wonderful.  Monday night when all I wanted to do is crawl in a mud hole somewhere & never come back out... he took me to town, we grabbed something to eat, rented two movies, came home & stayed up until 2am hanging out watching movies together.  I honestly couldn't have asked for a better evening & I'm so very thankful for how supportive he was & has been.  I'm very lucky to be married to such a wonderful man.

I keep telling myself that this has all happened for some reason unknown to me & that somehow someway everything will work out the way it's suppose to.

one week

Well here we are... exactly one week to the day we say our "I do's".  I have to say the past week has flown by pretty fast.

Today had its ups & downs.
I started the morning off with no kiss goodbye or typical walk to my truck from my honey.
On my drive to work I decided today was going to be a good day at work... which for the most part was until around 4pm when it took a plunge into a mud pit.  We won't discuss the details though.  Let's just say it really sucked.

On the brighter side of the day...
After work I got the oil changed in my truck, to get ready for our Branson trip.
When I got home from work, I've spent most of the evening relaxing, watching tv.

Now I'm fixing to call it an early evening & retire myself to bed.

Blah... hopefully tomorrow is a better day all around.

officially official

Well it's officially official, we are Mr. & Mrs. Cowcatcher!  Woohoo!

I thought our wedding went really nice last night & we were happy with how everything turned out.

I didn't even so much as trip while we were walking down the aisle either.  That's always a bonus.  The best part was that my dad actually walked slowly with me... unlike his brisk walk during rehearsal the night before.

I think the only complaint I had was the hot beaming lights that were supposed to be adjusted before our wedding, which apparently didn't happen.  They felt like heat lamps from a tanning bed but with no fan to cool ya off.  Luckily we both made it through without completely melting in a pool of sweat.

Now we're looking forward to this Saturday for our reception.  My bff Kat is making our cakes & I can't wait to see them.  Her cakes are always awesome.  She should really consider doing it for a living, she'd make a serious stack of cash I'm positive.  I have to brag though... I have the most talented bff ever.  I swear there's nothing she can't do.  She's done so much for my wedding it's crazy.  If only I had half her talent, wow.  I'm just so thankful & blessed to have her as my bff & everything she's done for me & continues to do.  She's just an awesome bff!

Yesterday was such a long day!  I rolled out of bed way before I wanted to & then had a nail appointment at 10am.  After my nail appointment I went to my parents house to pick up a few things to take w/me to the church just in case they didn't get there the same time I did.  After that I ran into town to Parkway to look at a white dress shirt for Fred to wear with his suit.  He met me there to check it out & didn't like the shirt so he left & went to eat lunch w/his family & I headed north west bound to madly search other stores for the perfect shirt.  1pm & 3 stores later I found one & purchased it after calling to make sure he was ok w/what I had found.  Left the store immediately, ran back to Parkway to have them press it so we could pick it up at 4pm.  By this point the afternoon was closing in on me & I was starving!  I ran thru the drive-thru at Braum's & headed home to eat & relax.  After I finished eating, my Mary Kay lady called to say she had my make-up ready for me, so I jumped in my truck & drove over there to pick that up, then headed back home again.  At this point it was 3:30pm & I was exhausted.  I made the decision to lay down for a brief nap & ended up sleeping until almost 5pm.  Oops.  Supposed to be at the church at 6pm.  Fred got home right after I jumped out of the shower & somehow we made it to the church right at 6pm.

So that was the crazy day yesterday.  Needless to say we were both extremely exhausted by the time the evening was over.  After our wedding, we all went to eat at Mackie McNear's.  Fred & I went by my parents house afterwards to drop my dress off & for him to change clothes & leave his suit there as well.  By the time we got home for the night it was late & we were both totally wiped out.

I'm certain as soon as both our heads hit the pillows we were out like a light.

The alarm went off way to early this morning, then I started kicking myself for not taking a half day off work today so that I could let my body re-coop from yesterday.  Apparently I wasn't thinking about how drained I would be.

The sweetest thing happened this morning though.  When Fred walked me out to my truck as I was leaving for work, he had put his ring on!  Awe... just totally warmed my heart.  I wasn't expecting him to have it on that early this morning, but he did.  I melted a little.  Ok... I melted a lot.  Then I wanted to go back inside the house & curl up in bed with him... but unfortunately I had to go to work.

Tonight I plan on getting to bed fairly early to catch up on some much needed rest.  Baby Kayla is draining me of all my energy these days.  Today has been the biggest challenge so far.  I think I've dozed off over 100 times trying to be productive at work.  Hopefully this evening we'll have a nice quiet evening together... our first evening alone as Mr. & Mrs.  Awe.

I can't wait to post pics of my hott husband in his suit though, wow he was smokin hott!

going to the chapel

Ok... everyone sing it with me now...

Going to the chapel and we're gonna to get married.
Going to the chapel and we're gonna to get married.
Gee, I really love you and we're gonna to get married.

Going to the chapel of love.
Spring is here,
the sky is blue.
Whoa! the birds all sing as if they knew.
Today's the day, we'll say, "I do"
and we'll never be lonely anymore.

Because we're going to the chapel and we're gonna get married.
Going to the chapel and we're gonna get married.
Gee, I really love you and we're gonna get married.
Going to the chapel of love.

Bells will ring,
the sun will shine.
Whoa, I'll be his and he'll be mine.
We'll love until the end of time
and we'll never be lonely anymore.

Because we're going to the chapel and we're gonna get married.
Going to the chapel and we're gonna get married.
Gee, I really love you and we're gonna get married.

Going to the chapel of love.
Going to the chapel of love.
Going to the chapel of love

Well we're now down to less than a day away from becoming Mr. & Mrs. Cowcatcher.  Everyone keeps asking me if I'm nervous or getting the last minute jitters, but I'm not & I haven't had any of that.  The only thing I'm nervous about is walking down the aisle in my dress & hoping everyone likes the way I look in it.  As far as actually getting married... I'm not the least bit nervous at all.

I guess when you know in your heart your marrying the person whom you know for a fact you will spend the rest of your life with... maybe you don't get nervous or have the last minute jitters, who knows.

I've learned first hand... that even planning something simple & small takes a lot of planning & can be a lot more stressful then I ever imagined.  I can't imagine trying to plan some crazy huge ceremony like some of those shows you see on TV.  That's just not our style, plus why spend that much money on something that will only last for a day.  I'd rather save the money & purchase something we need or want.

I have to admit that it does kinda feel like we're in some type of dream right now.  This time next year, not only will we be celebrating our first anniversary together but we will also be holding our first child.  Kinda crazy to think about huh.

I know that I can't wait to see my honey all decked out tomorrow night.  He's gonna look hott.  Wait, what am I saying... to me he always looks hott.  Do you think it would appropriate for me to grab his butt when we have our first kiss as Mr. & Mrs.?  Nah... I'm just kidding.  Not sure the preacher would find that humorous & it would probably embarrass my honey as well.  I'll refrain.

Chances are, this will be my last blog as a single woman.  The title will officially fit after this.
"When Two Trails Become One Road"

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."


1 Corinthians 13:4-7

week 21

Well I'm officially at the 21 week mark with baby Kayla & here's her latest ultra sound pic.  When we went to the ultra sound on the 6th that's when we found out we were having a baby girl.

I've been set on the name Kayla Elizabeth for as long as I can remember.  My bff Kat & I always said we would name our children after each other.  Sure enough... the first baby she had was a girl & shares my middle name!  Of course I think that's totally awesome.  Elizabeth is Kat's middle name & it just so happens we're having a baby girl first.  I always wished that our kids would grow up together & become bff's too, just like Kat & I, but life didn't work out that way & that's ok.

There was a point in my life that I wasn't sure I would ever have children.  After a certain age you start to wonder if you'll ever find that person you want to spend the rest of your life with & have a family with.  Even though it's taken almost 33 years... I have to say I've never been happier!  In less than one week I will be walking down the aisle towards the love of my life to say our vows in front of our immediate family with our bff's standing beside us.  I'm so excited & not even the least bit nervous.  I think I'm more nervous about what everyone will think of me in my dress then anything else.  I just hope that Fred loves me in the dress & it brings tears of happiness when he sees me in it.  That's the reaction I'm hoping & praying for.

As far as baby Kayla... she's definitely in there, dancing around to hopefully country music, but somedays it feels like she's seriously breaking it down in there.  I'm sure Fred can't wait until the day he'll be able to feel her too.  For now, it's just me who feels her doing flips or dancing.  Sometimes it tickles, but I've been warned that eventually it will be kinda painful.  I'm hoping Kayla decides to go easy on me.

I feel pretty good for the most part.  I have these stupid swelling issues that I can't seem to get rid of & I haven't been able to feel 4 fingers on my right hand for a little over 2 weeks now, which is apparently due to swelling also.

If I had to pick two of my biggest issues it's my extreme back pain & sleeping!  It's so hard to make it through the entire day without wanting to lay down somewhere & take a nap.  I have a bad back anyways & being prego seems to be pushing me to my limits somedays on the pain scale.  I manage to hide it for the most part but using my HoMedics Lumbar Massaging Cushion has helped a lot thankfully & I try to use it in the evening time when we're relaxing, watching tv.

As far as sleeping goes... I just flat out need to get to bed earlier.  For example today I'm dragging bigtime because we didn't get home & get to bed until 11:30pm & now I'm dearly paying for it.

Oh how I long to crawl into bed & pass out.  Hopefully bedtime will come early tonight.

happy bday

Sing it with me now...
It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to

Heck I almost forgot it was my birthday yesterday with everything else that's going on at the moment.  Wedding & reception planning wow... so much to get done in such a short amount of time.  Thankfully I have a lot of people around me who have an idea of what they're doing.

I'm just not very good at coming up with ideas for stuff like this & it's proving to be a challenge to figure stuff out & try to maintain my sanity during the process.

Well anyways... so yesterday was my birthday.  Yep... the big 33!  These years keep going by faster & faster the older I get I swear.

Since there was some people from our corporate office in Houston visiting yesterday, we all went out to lunch together.  The funny thing was while we were sitting there talking waiting for our food one of the guys said it was his birthday too... so then we said this had to be our birthday lunch so someone else had to buy... and it worked, that's what counts.  It was on the company (smile).

After work I rushed home, let Abigail out for some fresh air & to take care of her business, then change clothes & go to my parents house to meet Kat & her mom for my dress fitting for some needed alterations.  Didn't take long then we ran to Hobby Lobby to check out some fake flowers & I bought a pen to go with the guest book we had already purchased a few weeks ago.

It was almost 8pm before I pulled into the driveway.

Fred had made a trip to Hereford, TX & had driven straight back home afterwards, so I know he was exhausted from a day full of nothing but driving.  Driving doesn't bother me, but I'm not sure I could make a long trip like that all by myself with nobody to talk to.

I was kinda hoping for a warm welcome when I walked in the door, like any birthday girl would want I suppose.  Not exactly what I received though.  Instead I got Mr. Grumpy.

I really do hate these prego hormones I tell ya!  Coming home to Mr. Grumpy last night sent me into an emotional tornado which would probably be rated as an F25 if there is such a thing.  All I wanted to do is cry huge tears, but somehow I managed to refrain from showing anything & just patiently waited... hoping that maybe I would get a little bit of softness... love... a hug... something... anything... but... wait... nope none of that happened.

If you have to ask for attention or affection it doesn't really mean as much, know what I mean?

Around 10pm last night we made a run to Sonic to grab something to eat for dinner.  I know baby Kayla was more than pissed at me by that point, but I had hope... a little hope... ok maybe a lot of hope that we would've gone somewhere besides Sonic to eat.  Knowing my honey was so tired, he could've simply said... how about I surprise you with a nice dinner tomorrow night & just grab something quick tonight.

Again... if you have to ask for something simple it just doesn't mean as much.

On the brighter side of my birthday... I had like one million people leave happy bday messages on my facebook page which made me happy, including my sweetheart that sent me a message at 11pm last night.  Several family members called, which was nice too.

All in all I guess I had a decent birthday yesterday.

So happy birthday to me, I'm officially 33!
Heck, that rhymes, ha ha.

Kia Soul Hamster Commercial

I've been rolling in the floor ever since I first saw this commercial so just in case someone out there hasn't already seen it... check it out...