baby on board

Well here we go...

Initially, I totally freaked out.  One million things running thru my mind all at the same time.  Decisions, questions, everything you can possibly think of.

Shock.  Total shock to say the least.

My first response... well I didn't have one.  I was completely speachless.  Wasn't sure what to do, think or say next.

Everything happened so fast.  When I got the news that I was pregnant, it really didn't set in for awhile.  A long while.  Then after taking two more pregnancy tests at home, just so I could see it for my own eyes... it was confirmed... that yes I really am pregnant.

Yep... there I said it... I AM PREGNANT!

How did this happen?
No I'm not stupid, I know the process in which pregnancy occurs.
I was taking b/c pills though & never missed one pill at all.

It really didn't even seem real & until I went for the ultra sound... as I was lying there on the table & looked up the monitor in shock & it really hit me that there's a "baby it" in there!  Talk about scary!  Yikes.
Don't get me wrong, I've always wanted kids, family, etc. but I never thought it would happen so fast, so un-expected & so un-planned.

For awhile I wasn't quite sure if it was ok to be happy or sad.  I wasn't sure when or if I would reach my happy spot with all of this.  Although I'm still a little shaken & scared, I think I'm there now.  Two ultra sounds later & realizing how far along I really am & how close the time will close in... I've officially now gone into happy/planning mode.
Somebody pinch me, this isn't really happening... is it?  WOW

I feel like I'm in a tornado, spinning around & around or something.

Now I do feel a little better that it's out there on the table now.

random thoughts for the day

The one who takes your hand, but touches your heart is a true friend.

We seldom think of what we have, but always think of what we miss.

Don't cry because it's over now, laugh because it happened.

The more precisely you plan, the harder destiny will hit you.

What happens, happens for a reason.

Don't make an effort because the best things happen, when you least expect them.

The greatest events aren't the loudest, but the most quiet hours.

The most difficult lesson to learn is:  Which bridge in life to use or which one to break off.

Everybody sees how you seem, however, only some know who you are.

He who would like to have something he never had, will have to do something well, that he hasn't done yet.

Perhaps God would want you to become acquainted with many different people in the course of your life, so that when you meet the right ones, you can appreciate and be greatful for them.

Plan for tomorrow but live for today.

Love doesn't require two people to look at each other, but that they look together in the same direction.

Life is drawing without an eraser.

2 years

Approximately 2 years ago... is when my sweetheart & I officially began the start of our relationship.
I knew this man, first as my friend, ever since I was 15 years old, when we met in high school.  Looking back, I can't explain how thankful I am, for us keeping in touch off & on through the years since we graduated.

Now here we are today.  Engaged to be married, to spend the rest of our lives together & start a family.
I honestly couldn't imagine my life any other way & with anyone else.

For our "date night" last night... we went to TGI Friday's to eat dinner & we went to a movie "The Back-up Plan".  If we would've arrived 15 minutes earlier we would've watched "Date Night", but dinner took a little longer than what we had originally planned.  That's ok though, The Back-up Plan was really funny & a good movie, I'm glad we went & saw it.

We had a great time, as we always do have a good time together... just hanging out or what ever we're doing.

Time really flies by when your having fun I guess... and life goes by so quickly the older you get too.  You just have to enjoy each & every moment.

I love you sweetheart & thanks for our wonderful date last night.

Lord, I hope this day is good

Lord, I hope this day is good,

I'm feeling empty and misunderstood.
I should be thankful Lord I know I should,
But, Lord, I hope this day is good.

Lord have you forgotten me I've been prayin' to you faithfully
I'm not saying am a righteous man
But Lord I know you'll understand.

I don't need fortune and I don't need fame,
Send down the thunder, Lord, send down the rain.
But when you're planning just how it will be,
Plan a good day for me.
Lord, I hope this day is good,
I'm feeling empty and misunderstood.
I should be thankful Lord I know I should,
But, Lord, I hope this day is good.

You've been the King since the dawn of time,

All that I'm asking is a little less cryin'.
It might be hard for the devil to do,
But it would be easy for you...

Lord, I hope this day is good,
I'm feeling empty and misunderstood.
I should be thankful Lord I know I should,
But, Lord, I hope this day is good.

Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all those wonderful mother's out there & soon-2-be-mother's too!

Most of all, Happy Mother's Day to my mommy.

My mom has never been much on pictures of herself & I know if she was aware of me posting any pictures online she would try to end my life, I'm sure of that. So let this be our little secret, shhh.

When your growing up you never really appreciate everything your mom does for you & I think a lot of times when your young, you might take advantage of her, but don't mean to.

My mom was 40 & dad was 45 when they had me. Of course I wasn't exactly what you would call "planned"... but I like to tell myself that I was a wonderful surprise, lol. All the same though, we had our ups & downs throughout my growing up years. I will admit that I know I wasn't the easiest child to raise, especially when the teen years came.

The older I got, the more I grew up... the closer I became to both of my parents. I cherish the relationship I have with them now.  I literally talk to them every single day, even though they live 6 miles from me. Yes... of course we still have our moments & they do drive me crazy from time to time & I'm sure visa versa as well. But the fact is that I have allot to be thankful for.

I have a wonderful, loving mother. I couldn't ask for anything more. She is a good role model for me & hopefully my future motherhood as well.  I wouldn't trade my mom for nothing.  I have the most wonderful mom in the world for sure!  She deserves a bunch of points just for putting up with dad for so many years, ha ha.

I was lucky enough to have a stay-at-home-mom growing up.  She was always there for everything & always took good care of me.  I remember when I first started school, I didn't want to go because I didn't want to be away from mom for that long.  Of course I eventually got over that though.

I also want to wish my future soon-to-be mother-n-law a very Happy Mother's Day too!
She's a fantastic woman in so many ways!  I honestly couldn't imagine not having her in my life too.  She's just amazing & I love her just like my own mom.

So once again... Happy Mother's Day!
xoxo

still no water

Kev's been working on the water delima all day today & I think I can see water drops in our near future finally!  Hurray!

On top of the water not in working condition this morning, I felt like doo doo when I woke up.  I was up & down all night & when the alarm finally went off this morning I wanted to cry & beg for it to roll back a few hours.  Unfortunately that didn't happen though.

I managed to pull myself together & got to work at noon.
When everyone else is sick or not feeling good it seems to be ok... but for some reason when I feel like I'm on my death bed... it's not ok & I don't get any slack.  Why is that?

Oh well.

I'm still not quite feeling 100% yet, but I'm just happy the water will be on soon & I can take a shower & hopefully feel better.

no water

So earlier when I got home from work the water was working just fine.  Ran to Wal-Mart to get a few quick things, came home & BAM NO WATER!

Just like that... it vanished apparently.
Talk about frustrating.  Stressfull.

Seriously... not now.  I started out having a really bad day because I wasn't feeling well (sinus/allergies) & the day slowly got better, then it took a serious plunge!

Someone shoot me please!