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Does anyone else feel like a week... feels more like an entire month sometimes?  I've kinda had one of those weeks.

By the way... where in the world did the entire year go?  We're already right ontop of Christmas & I'm totally not ready for it!  I'm not ready for the year to end yet, someone help me hold it back a little longer.  I need more time to get things accomplished that I set out to do at the very beginning of the year.  I think we should all protest or file an extension for 2009!  Oh wait... maybe I'm the only one that's not prepared or ready to take on 2010 yet, who knows.  If that's the case, I guess I'm on my own.

I'm not a cat lover by any means, but I'm totally feeling the cat in this pictures pain.  Hair standing on end, looking like it's been thru the ringer a few times... yep, I'm right there.  Did I mention lots & lots of stress too?  Wait... this might be what I look like when I wake up in the mornings.  Yikes!

Do you ever have days when you wake up & ask why?  Somedays there's so much stress that you just wanna throw your hands in the air & say "I give up".  Or you just can't seem to make life go the direction that you want it to.

Don't get me wrong I'm a happy person most of the time, but I also have moments, hours or even days where I don't know where to start or what foot to put in front of the other.  I think the word for it is... LOST.

Let's see, what exciting plans do I have for this weekend?  I need to do some xmas shopping, but I'm not real sure that'll happen.

Fred had to take a load of bulls to McAlester, OK tonight & won't be back til sometime tomorrow afternoon/evening.  He's only been home a few days the past 2 weeks & I miss him.  I miss us spending time together in the evenings when I come home from work, so I can't wait until he gets home tomorrow & is here for a few days.

Well I think it's time to call it a night, I'm absolutely exhausted!
The sooner I go to sleep, the sooner tomorrow will get here & I will get to see my sweetheart!

mom's dr appointment

Currently 28 degrees outside... so it's still freezing outside!

Yesterday I took my mom to the second doctor to discuss knee replacement surgery.  This has been a long drawn out process to even get my mom to go to the doctor to see about her knees.  I'm talking years & years.  I think she's finally reached the breaking point where she's ready to get the surgery & be out of pain.

We decided to do injections in her left knee before scheduling the right knee replacement.  They went ahead & did the first injection today & it went extremely well.  Mom was nervous about it, but the doctor assured her that the injections were a piece of cake... and well mom confirmed after they were done that indeed it was a piece of cake.  The shot was quick & didn't hurt at all, thankfully.  This is the first injection of five that she will have.  One per week for the next five weeks.  She's supposed to talk to dad about when they want to schedule the surgery & then we'll be calling today or Monday to make the appointment.

I know mom is nervous about the surgery, but she's also worried about dad being taken care of while she's in the hospital recovering.  Mom has spoiled dad their whole married life.  He doesn't know the first thing about running the washer/dryer to do laundry or anything.  He can make bacon & eggs & use the toaster, but I think that's the extent of his cooking abilities.  Of course I live within 6 miles from them so it's not a big deal for me to help out & make sure dad eats a good dinner in the evenings.  Mom is just a worry-wart... I guess that's where I get it from.

I'm very excited that after all these years, we've finally came this far & now within a few more months my mom will have a new right knee & hopefully be feeling better than she has in a long long time.  I can't wait until the day arrives she's up & moving around after surgery & recovery.  I wanna jump up & down just thinking about it.

chilly day

Let's see - right now the temp is 19 degrees but feels like negative 19 degrees, especially with the breeze.  Oh how I dread the wintery season.  As I've mentioned before I'm a totally weenie when it comes to cold weather.

So on my lunch break today I ran to Wal-Mart & bought a pair of winter boots.  Hey they were $15.00 & I ended up getting the little girls size because the women's ones were to big.  Yeah... I have small feet, I can't help it & everyone loves to give me a hard time about it too.  All the winter boots I had seen at any other stores or online were mostly fabric & well... to me that doesn't make any sense what-so-ever.  The first time you would step off into a pile of snow they would get wet & then your feet would freeze... that's what I'm thinking at least.  Anyways moving on... these boots are warm & furry on the inside, have a decent sole & outside & I think I could walk in a pile of snow & my feet not get soaking wet or freeze off.  Perfect!  They might not be the cutest in the world or the most stylish, but I'm more worried about my feet freezing off to be concerned about whats stylish right now.  I have my own style anyways.  Not sure if that's a good or bad thing, but oh well.

When I rolled out of bed this morning, it was freezing in my house.  The temp in the living room said 48 degrees & thats no kidding.  The floor felt like walking on a sheet of ice & by the time I made it to the bathroom I swear my feet felt like they were starting to get frost bite.  We have 4 of those plug-in heaters to heat our home & that's proving to not be enough this year.  You would think in a 487 sq ft apartment located above a barn that maybe just maybe it would stay warm & plus... isn't heat suppose to rise?  Maybe we need to start a big fire in the barn downstairs & maybe that would help our apartment upstairs stay nice & toasty.  Apparently the apartment isn't very well insulated.

I keep crossing my fingers hoping that this year the winter season will pass quickly & the warmth will come back soon!  If everyone crosses their fingers too... maybe it will actually come true!

My honey is still out western Oklahoma right now.  Supposed to be rolling into town tomorrow afternoon/evening sometime.  I miss him & can't wait for him to return home.

I made hasbrown casserole last night, so it looks like I will be eating that for a week straight before it's gone.  It's hard to make any food for just one person, unless that's all you want to eat for the entire week.  I had a craving for it last night so I gave in & made it.  I also brought it for my lunch today... & it might be dinner tonight too.  Yikes!  I might turn into hashbrown casserole before the week is up.

pearl harbor

Well today officially marks the anniversary of Pearl Harbor, the exact date was December 7, 1941.  A dream of mine has always been to make the trip to Hawaii to see Pearl Harbor.  I'm not a water person, I don't swim or any of those things... I simply wanna make the trip to Hawaii to see Pearl Harbor in person.  I've read about it, love the movie, etc.  Of course I'd like to see other things to while in Hawaii, but Pearl Harbor would be my #1 and main reason to make the trip.

I've also always had this other totally crazy idea while in Hawaii.  To get married there!  Yeah... not the official first walk down the aisle, but like just me & my honey getting a marriage license & doing a private just the two of us saying "I do" on the beach or something.  I just think that would be neat to say we didn't just get married once but we did it twice & the second time was in Hawaii.  I know, I sound a little crazy at times, but I think it's crazy in a good way.  Oh well... the actual odds of me getting to make a trip to Hawaii is close to zero, so again this is all a far-fetched dream that I've always had & that's all it will ever be.

On my lunch break today, I went & got my tag... since it was actually due at the end of November.  Oops.  Anyways, have you seen the new Oklahoma tags?  My personal opinion is that they are ugly!  I'm very disappointed with the design.  Seriously... is this the best they could come up with?  Of course nobody asked for my design input, so I guess there's not anything I can do about it.  By the way, this is not a picture of my tag or tag number, I found the image on the internet & copied the picture just in case there are any stalkers out there.  Not that I'm a real hard person to find or anything.

Weather update:  the temperature says it's 30 degrees right now but I would like to argue with that.  It feels more like negative 30 degrees with the wind blowing.

Speaking of chilly, cold, freezing weather.  I'm thinking I need a pair of fuzzy furry boots of some sort.  I currently have on my tennis shoes & my feet feel like they are little ice cubes.  I don't own a pair of "warm" shoes/boots either.  I think this is something I seriously need to invest in soon.  I saw a commercial for Old Navy this morning & they were advertising fuzzy warm looking boots for $25.00!  I went online to check them out & well I found lots, but here's my thoughts... if they are fabric on the outside... how exactly is this going to work walking thru piles of snow?  Surely they'll get soaked, then they'll be all wet & cold & take forever to dry.  Make sense?  One thing for me is that I've never been up with what the current style is in the world... I'm more about comfort & common sense.  Common sense tells me fabric on the outside of snow boots is stupid.  How about making a rubber boot with fur on the inside?  I have yet to find that within a reasonable price range.  You know something for the "working girl"... that will be outside every morning defrosting her truck & scrapping her wind shield, while standing in the snow.

Oh how I miss having a carport/garage to park my truck in when the weather is crappy outside.  I dread the snow falling because of having to stand outside & scrape windows.  I'd much rather hibernate during the cold wintery months anyways.  I'm a total weenie when it comes to the cold weather.  If I could find an eskimo suit to wear every single day, I wouldn't step foot outside without it on!  I'm also thinking along with the fuzzy furry snow boots I need to invest in... I need to get some coveralls/overalls also!  That's as close as I'm going to get to an eskimo suit I guess.

The fact of the matter is that I can wish & want these things all day long... but the money is no where to be found in order to buy any of them.  Doesn't that just suck!  Grrrr

Or even if I did have the money right now... Christmas is coming up & I have gifts to buy, so buying something for myself right now is not even an option!

chickasha lights

My sweetheart rolled into town about 1am Saturday morning. He looked as if he had rolled in the mud a few times & he was a little scruffy, but I will admit it was kinda sexy. After he showered we hit the bed around 2am. I think as soon as our heads hit the pillow we were out.

8:30am came to quick. I called dad & he was headed towards the stockyards for the parade that starts at 10am. Dad had forgotten his glasses at home & needed them, so he asked if I would bring them. As soon as I hung up with him I took a quick shower, got around & we fled the house to head towards my parents to grab his glasses, then hook it down to the stockyards. We made it just in time! My brother came down to help dad, watch the parade & hang out too. After the parade, Fred & I cruised thru a few stores, ate at Cattlemen's Steakhouse then headed towards home. Man it was cold outside though... the wind felt like a solid sheet of ice cutting right thru you.

I was exhausted & it didn't take long after we arrived home, that my body hit the couch & my eyes shut. Needless to say I took a much needed nap & felt 100 times better when I finally woke up. The only thing I hate about taking naps is when you sleep in the afternoon & wake up to feel like you've wasted the day away. Especially when there was a million things I wanted to get do, but oh well.

We decided to make the drive to Chickasha to check out the lights. We got there around 9pm & the line was about a mile long to drive thru. Luckily it went pretty fast & the wait wasn't to bad. I remembered the park being bigger but it didn't seem as big this time. Of course the last time I was there was years ago. The lights were very pretty though, but it was way to cold outside to get out & walk around. At least Fred & I thought it was way to cold. I hate the cold weather but I love looking at Christmas lights. I love everything about the Christmas season except for the weather. I'm totally addicted to Christmas music too. If I could get away with listening to it year-round without people thinking I've lost my mind, I would!

After checking out the lights, we stopped at Chicken Express there in Chickasha to grab something to eat. They have really good food, if you've never eaten there, you should! Then went stopped at Henry Hudsons for a few beers before heading to the house.

Sunday we didn't get in any big hurry to get up & around. Fred had to get out of bed around 10ish to go help his mom feed & stuff, but I just laid in bed until noon. I made Cowboy Stew for lunch & we sat & watched tv most of the afternoon & was just lazy.

Around 5pm we headed towards Carter, OK so he could get back. Since he drove his mom in Friday night/Saturday morning he needed a ride back out west. We got there around 8pm, I stayed for a few minutes then decided to get back on the road so it wouldn't be to late when I got back home. Got home around 10:30-11, heated up some stew to eat, watched some tv then passed out.

Once again... the weekend just wasn't long enough.

oh it's friday

Have you ever been really excited about something... you pick up the phone to call that certain someone to tell them your exciting news & they answer with "WHAT... WHAT DO YOU WANT" Yeah... that pretty much throws your good news & excitement smooth out the door!

It's just been one of those days today & I'm so glad that today is finally Friday.

There are so many things going on this time of year, it's hard to figure out what to do & when.

First, I'd like to go to the Chickasha Festival of Lights with my sweetheart. I haven't been in ages on end & I'm sure it's changed allot, but I remember it was always so pretty. Free admission & it's only about an hour away from us.

Tomorrow there is a Cowboy Christmas parade in the stockyards, starts at 10am, that dad will be in with the Langstons wagon, but I'm not sure I'll make it down there or not. I've been dying to go to the Rodeo Opry for several years now. They have it every Saturday at 7:30pm & everyone I know that has been there, loves it. I just need to make a point to go sometime.

What is even more awesome is that the Trans-Siberian Orchestra will be at the Ford Center on December 20th! Oh how I'd love to go, but tickets are probably expensive so unfortunately unless someone is going to donate some tickets to me, I won't be seeing them in concert.

Why are concerts & stuff so damn expensive these days anyway? You pretty much have to be rich in order to do anything fun anymore & that sucks.

I just realized that I missed the first night of the NFR on tv last night! Grrr Good thing it will re-air tonight & I can record it.

Anyways... moving on... to my exciting, awesome, wonderful news! I officially have an appointment with the indian health services to get health insurance WOOHOO!! This is something I'm over the top excited about. Let's just say I've been paying way to much for health insurance & considering the fact I can't afford it & haven't been able to afford it since I lost my other job... well I should've done this a long time ago but I thought things would go differently this year then they did. Better late then never though right. I'm pumped & can't wait to make the phone call to cancel my way to expensive health insurance. This is such a huge relief for me, I can't even put it into words.

With this frigid cold weather already here, I'm now thinking... REMOTE STARTER FOR MY TRUCK! Ha Ha It would be so nice to hit a button to start my truck to get it to start warming up in the mornings before I leave. Hey a girl can dream, there's no harm in that.

I'm counting down the minutes until 5pm gets here, thats when the weekend officially starts.

blackberry

Have you ever wanted something so bad but it's just out of reach? Yeah, we've all been there. That's the spot I'm in right now. I want one of those Blackberry phones so bad I'm dreaming about it at night. As stupid as it sounds, it's true. It doesn't matter what I'm dreaming about the past few weeks but I'm always using a Blackberry phone somewhere in my dreams. Don't worry I haven't lost my mind... yet. It is questionable at times though.

I've spent all year trying to cut down on whatever I can to be able to pay just the necessary bills without drowning. I'm basically down to the basics now & still trying to figure out what else I can eliminate to be able to afford just to live. It sucks, bigtime.

Being broke & not having a dime to your name, doesn't change the fact you still want things in life that are considered "extras".

I still want the Blackberry phone, even though I can't afford it, but technically I could put off paying a bill in order to get the phone I so badly want... I just can't seem to talk myself into doing it. Have I mentioned life sucks? Well if I haven't... LIFE SUCKS!